Fear and Dating

The things I say I say only from what I have experienced. I am not speaking for all parents, I have never parented with another parent so I can't speak for those that have two parties involved. I don't mean to cause offense to anyone. So if I do, I'm sorry. Dating. Hmmm, dating. With this subject, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. Dating has changed so much in even just the past few years. And even more since I was in High School. Dating is kind of hard. Who calls who first, and how long do you wait to call? Now everyone has phones! We don't have to wait for our turn on the phone. Wait until a member of our family gets off of the internet so that we can wait for the ring. Do they like me? Did I talk too much? Haha, oh it was so much easier. Now bring a little child into it. I would spend every second of every day with my little girl. And for the most part, I do. It makes you think twice about who and what are worth your time. I'm sure that I am probably a little over board with this, but I don't think that just anyone deserves my time over her. Sometimes I wonder if I should let loose a little. I mean I haven't been on a date in over 2 years. Like at all. I haven't even been asked. That's a little sad, maybe a lot sad. But I have been there for my daughter. I don't meet people. Don't get me wrong. I have friends. I have male friends. And I talk to them. But I don't know how to flirt. I don't know how to flirt while I have a little girl at home. Do you want to know what I really think it all boils down to? FEAR! Fear of being hurt again. Fear of hurting someone. Fear of what is next. Fear of the unknown. I guess we just wait. I just have to keep on being me. And do my best to be the best mom I can be. And trust that the Lord has a plan and I just don't know it yet.