Something different?

How many times a day do you wish you were doing something different? What number do you have? What does that say about what you are doing? Do you wish you were at work? Do you wish you were away from your kids? Do you wish you were not with your significant other? Do you wish that you were stuck at school? Do you wish you were in traffic? I think (or at least I hope) that you aren't wishing for any of these. Yes you might need a break from your spouse, or your children. But to be AWAY from them, again, I hope not. I myself, have many times that I am wishing to be somewhere else. As I leave the house, I am wishing I wasn't. As I board FrontRunner(the train) to go to school, I wish I was at home playing with my little girl. As I walk to class, I wish I was not walking toward school but away from it, because that means I am going home. I absolutely do not like being away from my daughter. I have major, I mean major anxiety every time I do. I'm better at keeping it together now but it is still very hard for me to do. I hate having to leave her. Even thought I know I she is in good hands. I worry about the what if's. I feel bad because I feel like I am failing because I cannot be there with her all the time. I know she probably needs time away from me. It will help her grow. It will help her learn. And I'm told, it is good for her. HMMM. Anyway, my reason for this is, when you are having these feelings, is what you are doing worth it? Do you need to make a change in your life? Of course life will always have these, because we have to be adults. But if you feel like maybe something is off, I suggest you pray and ponder about it. The Lord will guide you to what he would like you to be doing, you just have to listen.